Getting back to God

by Payson

                                      
     Remember me? 

     It's been a while hasn't it. I have a reason why I haven't been writing, but the more I think about it, the more stupid the reason seems. 

     I have been having a rough time in the past couple months. I didn't really know what to write about. I didn't really have anything inspiring to say. 

     But now that I think about it, that's a really stupid reason. Isn't that what this blog is about? Sharing my struggles to help others? So why not share?
     I have been really depressed lately. I really don't know what's causing it. That's leading to very bad self-hatred. Which leads to poor eating habits. That's all it takes for me to be back in my destructive habits. Skipping a meal here and there, purging after a big meal — nothing huge. Not compared to what I have done before. But I know that I shouldn't do it.
     I have been really thinking about it in the past few days, and I made a connection. A very huge connection. 

     I have recently been lacking in my faith walk. I've been walking away from God rather than toward Him like I should be doing. That's why I have been struggling. I know that's why! 

     When I read my bible daily, and talk to Him all the time, I don't feel depressed; I feel uplifted! Like I can take on the world! And I would really like to feel like that again.
     So here's what I'm going to do. I'm going to get a plan to read my bible daily. I'm going to write every day in my journal, and I'm going to pray. Pray A LOT. 

     So the big inspiring message for this blog post? DON'T STRAY FROM GOD. You probably hear that a lot, but trust me, it has some pretty scary consequences. 

     If your life isn't going as nice as you would like it, take it to God. Focus everything on Him, and I promise, things will start to look up.